Week 1 E-Mail

Holy Crap! I do not think I have experienced such a long, emotional, and overwhelming week in my life.  I have been scared out of my mind and have had doubts every single day.  It has definitely not been an easy week.

Wednesday was just a whirlwind and I am not sure what happened.  I was so scatter brained and so out of it I was not sure what was going on.  I met my district and my companion.  My companion's name is Elder Hill and he is not that bad of a guy; but oh my land he does not understand the meaning of sarcasm, he is a complete stickler to every single rule, he does not believe in naps, and he has not seen any classic movie (Tommy Boy, Billy Madison, Sandlot, Superstar, etc.)... PROBLEM!  Needless to say me and him have some differences.

 My district is 10 guys: 6 going to Austrailia (5 to Melbourne, 1 to Adalaide) and the other 4 (myself and my companion included) are going to Fresno.  My district has mostly people going to Melbourne and 1 sister going to Fresno.

My district is full of awesome guys, we get along great and we laugh uncontrollably every night.  We all are great friends and plan on staying in touch after these 2 years.

I have had to teach 2 "invetigators" this past week.  One being a character that one of our teachers portrays; his name is Fernando and he is a tough sell (Alcoholic wife and 3 kids).  But we have got him to commit to prayer, reading, and church.  Our second investigator we met last night is Justin Long (a character played by anyone (member or non-member).  It was exciting because he was a scary looking dude, but he definitely was searching for the truth.

I have learned so much this week about being a better teacher, I had so many places to improve I didn't know where to start.  But I am learning and sure enough my testimony and my conversion is being greatly strengthend.

It has definitley been hard to live like this; I have absolutley no free time, my time to play piano is very limited and most of all, I miss having alone time.  I am definitely learning to appreciate all the alone time I had, because I am going insane always having someone watching my every little action.

The hardest part has been being away from you guys.  Every time I have considered going home it has been only because I have been so family sick.  I know I wasn't always around you guys and I never expressed itr enough, but I love you guys with all my heart.  I know I am in the right place and I am doing the right thing, but how I long for the day that I can see you guys again.  I promise I will spend more time with you guys when I get home, because I get sick to my stomach thinking about how many years I wasted in my bedroom all alone.  I am crying just typing this because it hurts so much thinking about you guys.  I just want to let you guys know that I love you so much and that I will never take you for granted again, because you guys are all the world to me now.

Meili: I am sorry I did not express my love when you left.  I hope you know that I really was sad to see you leave, I just still could not believe I was leaving yet.  I love you and I hope you had a great time at Girls Camp, I have no doubt that you should have been there.

Jenna: I really appreciated your letter, although you are a fool for using Taco Maker instead of Taco Bell, I found it rather insulting.  I hope you are enjoying brainwashing Grayson to love you the most again.

Courtni: Gosh, Could you have made me anymore of a wreck?  Your letter just reminded me of all the times we had and how I miss them so much.  I hope you know that I was beyond words happy that you came to the MTC, you helped me keep my mind off of things and really comforted me, because I was scared out of my mind. Thank you and I can't wait to see you again.

Derek:  Thank you so much for your help these past few weeks, all your suggestions were really helpful.  But most of all, thank you for the love you showed me.  I know our relationship was never really tight, but it has been one that has slowly progressed, and I am grateful for having such a great example like you to look up to.  Your letter is one of the reasons I stay here, it gives me such strength to continue on.

Britni:  Thank you so much for your package, it was a great surprise and it was very enjoyable.  I know that we have never really known each other all that well. our age difference is to thank for that.  But I hope you know I have always looked up to, you are the oldest and you have always been the one I wanted to be.  You are such a great sister and parent and I hope I can be that to mu kids.

Mom: I am going to struggle writing this.  Mom, I am doing fine, I have been better since Thursday.  I recieved that bag yesterday and it is great.  I have made friends and life is splendid.  Although I am not happy about that binder, I was bawling like a baby that night reading it, but thank you, I read through it a lot.  Mom, I hope you know that I love you so so much.  You are constantly on mind and it sucks because it hurts so bad.  I hope you know I am very grateful for everything you did for me and continue to do.  I love you with all my heart and you are the greatest.  I can't wait for the day when you run past security to give me a hug that I will never get tired of.  I do need your help though and I need: Dad and Courtni's email. I never got them.

Dad: Thank you for all the support you showed me.  You also helped keep my mind off things while we drove to your office.  I am so proud and happy to have a father who cares for me so much and who taught me the importance of work, I do not think I could have survived this week without that knowledge.  You are such a great example to me and you are the greatest guy I know.

Well I basically used all my time to make it through this letter since I was an emotional wreck though the whole thing.  But once again, I love you all and can never stop thinking about the day at the airport when I get to see you all again.  And look on the brightside, 1 week down, 103 to go.

Love you guys

Elder Jaxon Cade Hall